A Kuma's Thoughts
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Gracias Por...
The curious birdy that keeps our life so funny and exciting. He's like a puppy. |
Family games and competition. For learning new things and laughing together. |
The beauty of nature and God's creation. |
Sweet treats and time spent with my brothers and cousins. Thank the Lord for dessert. |
The way my dad takes pictures :) The way parents provide with love and concern. |
Creativity and all that one is able to accomplish. |
Shopping with your bro and being silly together. And for Black Friday sales. And no tax. Go Portland! |
Familiar faces in new contexts :) Family parties are only growing. |
Roses. Enough said. |
New additions to the family! For adorable puppies who melt your heart <3 We love Rembert! |
Friday, November 29, 2013
The Source: A Shakespearean Sonnet
The sun shines from the galaxy above,
And Lo! The stars submit to its great light.
Displayed as endless grace just like a dove
Released in freedom to the air in flight.
Yet in the midst of light does darkness hide,
Deceiving those we cannot find the source.
Confusion overtakes their weary minds:
Abandoned, roaming in the misty forr'st
To guide, protect, to love through good and bad,
To help us when the way cannot be found.
The light redeems all fears and failures had
And to His name their lives will then be bound.
So how can we show them just how to find
The Ruler and the Savior of mankind?
Friday, November 15, 2013
Don't Kill the Messenger
I am not the first to be concerned about being the bearer of bad news. As the blind prophet, here solely to serve "our king and benefactor" (154), I come to offer my counsel as I receive messages from above. I have never once led him astray and he has "so far steered a steady course (152). Oh, Creon! How he must have fallen to resort to such behavior as this! I had previously warned him as well, cautioning that he stood "on razor's edge (152), yet he proceeded to deny the divination I received, too stubborn and proud to listen to the voice of the gods! It is not me who declares these words! "..all men fall into sin. But sinning, he is not for ever lost/hapless and helpless, who can make amends and has not set his face against repentance. Only a fool is governed by self-will" (153). My words are only to help Creon, not offend him (153). Why doesn't he understand this?
Creon, how I wish he considered my message. Instead, he claimed "my divination false" (154). He even attacked my position as prophet, and I am now inclined to believe that "all kings...seek gain unrighteously (154). I tried to warn him again and again. Teiresias, his trusted counselor! I had hoped it would not come revealing the tragic prophecy I had heard, but alas, he would not heed the divine guidance. At that point it wast too late and all was lost. Nothing could alter this. "The gods themselves [could not] do it" (155). Creon, our king, brought this upon himself. There was nothing more I could do as a counselor and nothing more our leader wanted to hear. Now the entire city and "neighboring city will be goaded to fury against [him], for upon them too the pollution falls when the dogs and vultures bring defilement of blood to their hearths and altars" (155). This is one case where I desire to say I could be mistaken, but the gods have revealed this to me, and that is how it shall be.
Creon, how I wish he considered my message. Instead, he claimed "my divination false" (154). He even attacked my position as prophet, and I am now inclined to believe that "all kings...seek gain unrighteously (154). I tried to warn him again and again. Teiresias, his trusted counselor! I had hoped it would not come revealing the tragic prophecy I had heard, but alas, he would not heed the divine guidance. At that point it wast too late and all was lost. Nothing could alter this. "The gods themselves [could not] do it" (155). Creon, our king, brought this upon himself. There was nothing more I could do as a counselor and nothing more our leader wanted to hear. Now the entire city and "neighboring city will be goaded to fury against [him], for upon them too the pollution falls when the dogs and vultures bring defilement of blood to their hearths and altars" (155). This is one case where I desire to say I could be mistaken, but the gods have revealed this to me, and that is how it shall be.
Friday, October 18, 2013
Passive-Agressive
Everyone has seen her; walking the halls with her shoulders slightly
slumped, eyes fixed on the ground, a small smirk on her lips. Everyone has heard her speak; sharing devotionals,
praying for the school, in an awkward but heartwarming manner. Everyone has heard her name; the well-known name
that all feel the need to shout out rapidly: “KU-MA-SA-KA!”
That day was no different than the others; she drowsily
journeyed from class to class, trying not to let her head droop for too long. She quietly and studiously
scribbled notes on a scratch piece of paper, worried she wouldn't remember anything
the next day. Her eyes lit up suddenly
as she conversed with those she loves.
That’s what gets her through each day.
She laughed and giggled, like many girls do, but then there were moments
when she seemed totally removed from the world, staring off into space, vital
information going in one ear, then out the other. Eyes fixated on the floor, her whole face
seemed downcast and dejected. Yet when a
friend came up and asked “Are you okay?” she brushed it off and says with a
smile, “Oh, yeah! I’m just tired”. Immediately after doing so, she quickly turned
away, mentally kicking herself for lying to the ones who mean the most her,
but she never ends up bringing up the subject again.
At 2:45 she let out a long sigh as the last chime of the bell
sounds in each class. Throngs of
students poured out into the halls as she quickly becomes engulfed within the
masses. She slowly shuffled to her
locker, maneuvering her way through the congested hallways. Snatching her oversized bag, she trotted to
the bathroom with dubstep in her head and a smile on her lips. Game time.
Sitting in the back of the room, she quietly observed her
rowdy teammates while slowly eating her pregame meal. She laughed with them, but always seemed removed
from the whole scene, like an outsider looking in.
She thoughtfully bandaged her fingers and ankles, carefully spreading
ointment to protect her dry, cracked skin through the activity to come. At 4:30, she plopped down on the cold
bleachers, proceeding to shout out encouragements to the JV team, wondering if
anyone really heard her. This continued
through their game, and they came out on top.
Now it was her turn.
Finally, her heart racing, she bursts through the tunnel of
JV players, her face glowing with excitement, followed by her fellow
teammates. The lyrics “can’t hold us”
blast over the speakers as that becomes her knew mindset. Nothing can hold her back. She comes alive in this art of a sport called
volleyball. With nonstop communication
with her teammates, she yells out everything she sees as the team flows together
like one unified unit. Her timidity
during the school day dissolves away as she strategically picks out the weak
link in the line of passers on the opposing team.
She pinpoints the individual, takes a deep breath, and “ACE!” rings
through the whole gym and she repeats the exhilarating process. She serves the ball and the opponents pass it
up and tip it over the two person block.
The passionate player sprawls out and hits the ground hard to pop the
ball up, but misses. She angrily smacks
the ground as she gets up, fire in her eyes.
As the team loses momentum and the game as well, she tries
desperately to fire up her team to fight alongside her. She rallies her teammates by giving a
passionate pep talk and yelling at the top of her lungs as they cheer. Unfortunately, the game was lost and the players,
frustrated. At the end of the night, our
senior setter walks to the end line of the court to check out, leading her teammates,
with her chin held high.
Friday, October 4, 2013
Brotherly Love: A Personal Statement in Progress
As
I plopped down to do my homework after an exhausting day full of school and
sports, my brother cheerfully shuffled up to me with a light in his eyes. I looked up to see him standing there, hands
behind his back, trying to suppress a smile.
I was not in any mood to interact with him or even talk to anyone at
that point and was going to tell him I had a lot of homework and things I had
to do when he quickly pulled his hands from behind his back revealing a plush Pokémon
character and five key chains of characters from the movie Totoro. “I bought them from China for five dollars!”
he exclaimed earnestly. My mom sighed
and laughed and proceeded to tell him that it is not necessary to announce
details like that in the future. I did
not know what the Pokémon was, having not watched our favorite childhood
television program in years, but it brought me great joy and a smile to my lips. I gave him a hug and said thank you, and he sauntered
away, humming some video game music.
My
older brother, Colby, was diagnosed with mild autism at a young age. As his little sister, I did not fully
understand what this meant until our later years growing up. It does not affect him so much that you can
tell just by looking at him that he has autism, but he has a difficult time
discerning appropriate times for certain behaviors and picking up on unspoken
social etiquette. It hasn't been easy
all the time, but he brings immense joy and variety into my family.
Throughout everything, he is always
there. Like constant in my life, he has
always there to support me in everything I did ranging from dance recitals, to
academic award assemblies, to the countless volleyball tournaments over these
past five years. No matter the outcome,
he is always there to give me a pat on the shoulder and tell me “Great job Hannio”.
His constant love has also shown me the
most innocent heart that I have beheld, being torn and conflicted by the insensitive
attitudes of those around him. Without his
sensitive spirit, I most likely would not have even noticed these small things
such as harmful words that bother him so much.
His sensitivity has impacted me and I am now aware of the power of words
and want to see the best in everyone, no matter what the circumstances. I feel like I have been introduced to a whole
new aspect of life that I wish more people could witness; but then come the
hard days.
I
have a distinct memory in my mind of Colby sitting at the computer, staring at
a blank Word Document for hours upon hours, trying to write an essay. His condition made it especially challenging
to express himself through words and analyze deeper implications in works of
literature. But year after year, he
worked at it, and through countless hours of help from our Dad, he overcame his
struggle and is now one of the most affluent writers I know. The day he received a perfect score on an
essay he wrote with absolutely no help was like a dream come true for our
family. By example, he has taught me to
persevere through hardships and has shown me what hard work and dedication can
do. I desire to strive and succeed in
whatever I do, using the gifts and abilities given to me to their full
potential.
Watching
my brother struggle and flourish has softened my heart to care for those around
me and has motivated me to work hard at everything I do. No matter what the
outcome, I know that he, and my family, will always be there to affirm their love
for me and say “Great job, Hanna”.
Word Count: 647 :)
Please feel free to comment on anything to revise or fix, and even things you would want to see in this essay! Feedback would be very helpful. :)
Word Count: 647 :)
Please feel free to comment on anything to revise or fix, and even things you would want to see in this essay! Feedback would be very helpful. :)
Friday, September 27, 2013
Who Am I?
ISFJ
I: 22% S:1% F:75% J:1%
The "personality description" was surprisingly accurate and there were many things I do that I didn't realize, so that is good to keep tabs on from now on. There were only two parts I didn't agree with (which I crossed out), but that's bound to happen in a quick little test like this. Here are some of the descriptions which I felt very relevant to myself:
"ISFJs are characterized above all by their desire to serve others,
...although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as low-profile Is, their actions don't call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.) Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomatic illnesses.
While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle--and often possessive of their loved ones, as well.
Needless to say, ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones.
Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice.
The only reason I disagreed with those two crossed out portions is because I personally did not agree with them; I don't expect a give-and-take relationship at all or feel an insatiable "need to be needed". Also I would say that in I fight, I would be the first to rush in to protect a friend-no matter the circumstance. That may be the oh so strong emotions motivating me or my disdain for disrespect. Who knows, since I've never been in a fight before.
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But now on to the Affirmation Solicitations!!
First off, I just want to say thank you to those who filled these out as it was a great encouragement and very helpful.
5 of my words were:
1. Understanding
2. Genuine
3. Maturity
4. Humble
5. Perseverant
"Over the years, Hanna has shown tremendous growth in her personal development, spiritual life, and leadership capabilities. She has a natural, yet uncanny, sense of adaptability; Hanna is able to observe and gather information about her surrounding, peer environment, and social climate and assess needs, both the needs of those around her and her own needs to flourish and succeed. This is one trait that is foundational to her growth as a leader. What really makes her stand out is her ability to come alongside people and partner with them, to see the best in everyone and highlight that. In all that though, Hanna has such a pleasant and humble spirit and such a heart for service. She is all too ready to deter praise and acknowledge her human limitations, but that doesn't stop her from loving on people, and I believe that is a very rare kind of confidence."
This little litany (hehe) especially touched me because the individual didn't know I was going to read this and just thought it was for my teachers. He may or may not have freaked out a little when he found out I was going to read it, but I'm all the more appreciative of his words knowing he was being honest (I hope....).
Sorry this somehow became insanely long but I appreciate if you read all the way through!! :)
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